screwed

Fucked. Totally fucking up. Fucked up.
I have a thousand and one things to worry about, most of which I'm totally fucked.

How fucked am I?
I haven't been to school in a month.
All my profs are asking about me because I have only turned up for 1 class this sem and the sem is almost over.
My group mates for some fucking module are ignoring me because I only turned up for 1 class and because I'm repeating it, I don't know any of them.
I have two fucking presentations, this week and next week, of which I know nothing about.
My project is due when I'm not in the country.
I have two research papers to do when I'm out of the country.
I have to get medical leave for Saturday because I'm not turning up for a quiz.

Above all, I am dead broke.
I got fucking pickpocket when I went for a short trip to Genting.
I am totally fucking penniless.
And I have to see a doctor for medical leave, and I have no idea how I'm gonna pay for it.
I only have half the money for rent when I'm out of the country.
I have limited funds after buying my air ticket home.
I am skipping meals and relying on MacDonalds redemption points to eat.

I am not eating a lot.
I am smoking too much.
I drink too much.
I can't get to sleep at night.

How fucked am I?
Very fucked. Totally fucking up.

I've been having nightmares for 3 nights in a row, when I do fall asleep. This fucking sucks.

The only thing I'm looking forward to?
Going out of the country for two weeks.
I am seriously, in all honesty, counting down to the day I leave for the airport.