i don't.

I don't kick up big fusses about nothing. I only make a point if i think it is of concern and that smth should be done. I have lived in my skin for 20 yrs going on 21, i think i know myself well enough to know that i will only say smth if i have thought about it and knows it warrants some mention. That is hardly making up a big fuss or splitting hairs over trivial matters.

I would simply love for someone to be on my side, to give me credit for what i have done and what i have been doing. i would like to be appreciated. all these things may be small, but many small things will eventually add up into one large thing and then it will be a huge hoo-hah. I want to get rid of smth small before it turns big.

It isn't easy to get rid of independence, smth i have been hanging on to for over 4 years. in order to do that and rid it for life, i need some support. i need someone on my side. i don't often need things, i think its a matter of my pride, i don't want to have to need smth. but i do need some support, i do need someone on my side.

I have a status, so have you. I am aware of that status all the time, of your status with me at all times, so much so that it is a part of me. I hope you are awars of my status with you, too.