the last day

The last day of 2006. Which means it's time to make new year resolutions for 2007. Which means its time to review whatever happened the whole of 2006.

My first, most important new year's resolution is to be happy, from the depths of my heart, again. And to make you happy too. To make all who matter to me happy.

I guess my second would be to be yours as much as you're mine. The third new year's resolution? What everyone wishes for every year. Good health, plenty of money, harmonious surroundings, so on and so forth.

It's funny how every one wishes for happiness, which seems so elusive. It isn't really so, though. The trick to it is to just wait for happiness to come, don't go looking for it when you know it isn't there. Take the action needed, but besides that, don't go too far looking for it. Because then you'll just lose yourself. I know because I've been there.

This year has been one with a lot of happenings, more so then usual. I've been through a lot, I've changed a lot, matured in ways only I can see. I've been through happiness, sadness, heartbreak, heart-mend (if there ever is such a word), and who knows what. I've come out of it slightly tainted, but at least I can say that I'm really beginning to feel.

Many times this year I thought I was escaping, running away from things I didn't want to face. But I also realised, finally, that my running away was a running towards. Running towards experience, running towards being strong. Running towards really feeling and really loving once again. Running towards my true self.

And so, I'll climb those well-worn stairs of love again. Only because I learnt to feel, to love, to let down those walls. Only because of you.

I know that the people around me are the ones who matter, too. Be it new or existing, they are the ones who hold me up, cheer me up, who are there for me. So, i guess for whatever it may be, I'm just thankful I have these people around me.

I'm glad I got to know you this year. I'm glad I know what it's like to really love, and to be loved. I'm glad that I know what it's like to be hugged, kissed, cuddled by you. I'm happy I've got you.

And to you, you, and you, I'm glad I've got all of you.

Happiness comes in tiny pleasures.

All this, for the last day of 2006.

Have a blessed and happy 2007.