i've known

I've known for months that we would get here.

Maybe, you see, you thought I was thinking too much. So you dismiss it, like how you dismiss most of what I say. Unfortunately, this time you were never more wrong than ever. Because what I knew would happen is happening now.

I'm done with anger, done with rage, done with whatever you think might still be harboured in me. The only thing I'm not done with, is telling you in exact words exactly how much I've kept inside me, how much I've never ever told you from goodness-knows-when. Which I am now prepared to tell you.

It doesn't matter, and I don't really care now. For I have too many things at stake, too many things to do and think about.

It seems like such fun until you lose what you have won, ain't it? You won, but you still lost.

I've known for years that we'd get here.
I can't make believe that we're seeing the same thing
I've known for years that we'd get here.
It'd be a shame, it'd be a shame.
It'd be a shame to make believe.