back to reality

Back to reality. Back to another few months without you here with me.

How does it feel?

It feels incomplete. It feels empty.
It hurts.

It's hitting. Hitting me so hard.

I saw the city lights last night from the plane, and the moment I caught a glimpse of the city lights, it hit me. It hit me so hard, that I was not going to have that smile, that look on your face, those eyes, to look forward to for another few months.

So close. So close, yet so far.

Going through the motions of everyday life.
Feeling but not feeling.
Laughing but not laughing.

It just is not the same without you here by my side.

I find myself waking up, wanting to turn to you, wanting to feel your arm around me.
I find myself looking for signs of you around me --
Your toothbrush, your shoes, your jacket, your clothes, the smell of you.

I miss you.

I feel...
Lost without you.

My heart's breaking.
It hurts, bad.
Is yours, too?

Where are you?
Be with me, love, be with me.

I love you, love.

Wait for me, because I will be back.
Just wait for me...