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The most painful thing you can ever hear
Is for someone to tell you something like that
And when the pain hits
No matter how you tell yourself not to
The tears still fall.

The most painful thing you can ever hear
Is to love someone and to want to be with her
Then realise it's the short term, the small things that shouldn't matter, that matters
And not the long term, not the things that should matter.

The most painful thing you can ever feel
Is to sit and stare unknowingly
Feeling the ache spreading in you
Feeling so alone.

The most painful thing you can ever feel
Is to not feel
To not know what or how to feel
To not know what to say or do.

The most painful thing
Is to hear this
Is to feel this.

I want to say that it doesn't hurt.
I want to say that it isn't real.

I don't even know what to say.

It should be that I am yours and you are mine.
It should be that we are going to make it through.
It should be that our love is strong enough.
It should be that we are there, we are strong for each other.
It should be.

Where is that place in your heart that I am supposed to reside in?
You reside in my heart, and only you.

I trust, I believe, I have faith, I love.
I do so much to show them to you.
Which part did I do wrong?

It only happens when you let it happen.
I never allowed it to happen, because I know who I love, and I know who i want, for now and for the future.
But... ... ... ... ... ...

The saddest thing to feel
Is to feel your heart aching
Feel the tears sliding down your face
And there is nothing you can do to make it better.

It hurts.

God... as much as I don't want it to, as much as I try to be strong on the outside, as much as I try to sound as normal as possible when I talk to you, it hurts.
It hurts so fucking much.
It just is so painful.
So painful to know this is happening.
So painful to know it could happen.
So painful to know how sad it feels.

It hurts.
God... it hurts...