i think me

she wakes up in the morning.
i don't want to wake up.
she starts thinking about it.
i don't want to think about it anymore.

she keeps weighing the two options.
i keep returning to that one option.
she knows who she wants to be.
i don't know if i know who i want to be.
she knows who she is.
i don't know if that is really who i am.
she finds herself through her experiences.
my experiences let me see myself clearly.

i am confused today.
this is not the real me that i was yesterday.

she keeps returning to her.
i should not be going to her.
she daydreams about her.
shit, i'm spacing out.
she knows only one option.
i cannot choose that one option.
she comes to her senses.
am i crazy or is this me?

she smiles at her.
i feel a rush of blood to my head.
i cannot let this happen.
she reaches new heights of ecstasy.
shit, i'm really spacing out, yo.
babe, you're stoning.
i'm falling, i'm falling, i can't fall, i'm falling.

she is lost today.
i need to pull myself together.
she has only one thought.
i am too scattered.
she is confused today.
i really know what i want now.

she keeps choosing between herself and her many relationships.
i want to be happy.
she knows what should be done.
i need to do what is right for me.
she keeps debating about her happiness and others'.
i want to be happy.
the dilemma reached a peak.
i need to choose now.
she chose her other roles.
i am so unhappy.
she's giving herself to them.
i am wasting my happiness and my life.
she is sacrificing herself.
i should be selfish.
it is time to be selfish.
be true to yourself.
babe, you need to be yourself.
she walks around with a heavy heart.
i need to be, i want to be happy.

she chooses herself.
this is my happiness.
she chooses her.
this is the love of my life.
she tries to reprimand herself.
i am so disappointed in you.
i am not the least bit disappointed with myself.
she chooses to please herself.
i need to be kind to myself.
she chooses her.
i am finally happy.

she is herself today, finally.
i am finally myself now.
you are finally being yourself.
i am who i am.
this is me.