running

mood: ???

music: Andy You're A Star - The Killers

are you always on the run
running away from all things present
things that hurt, that harm, that tug at your heartstrings
running and running.

i'm so tired of running
can't you just give me a moment
to sit down and catch my breath
without worrying about being caught up with

things that ought to stay in the past never do
like swimmers rising to the water's surface for air
the past will always rise up to hurt
almost as if it had survival instincts of its own

i'm not ready to let it show
i'm not ready to let it go
when i am i'll let you know
until then can you just let it blow?

fear of alienation and non-acceptance
don't get me wrong, i'm not ashamed
of who i am, just of what people will say
fear of being put down hurts so bad

so till then i'm always on the run
running away things that hurt
from things that make my heart ache
i'll keep running and running...


-written on a windy night by me