who?

Are we who we are or who we think we are??

That is the big question of the day. I did a little in depth thinking while resting my eyes today, and that's when this popped up in my mind. you see, i happen to think that i belong to the latter category. I may be a bit of the first one, but more of the second. i try and be everything to everyone, because it feels nice to make people happy. but when for once i try and do something for myself, i am called selfish. now, why doesn't that surprise me? out there, everywhere, people are contradictions. when i change my plans so that i can spend more time with some people, they tell me somewhat late that they can't make it. i get scolded that im being selfish because its just for that day. it isnt the matter of whether or not we meet, it is the matter of me trying to do smth tt will please, make someone glad, try to spend more time, without actually telling the person that i had to do it. selfish? i think i built up so much of who i think, and who people think i am, that it seems im carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.

But, on a happier note, now that i have thought it through, its time i did smth. and i hope my inspiration for tt smth will come by pretty quick. til then, its off to do those stupid tests for tuition agencies.