wait

"Can you please wait here, driver, until I stop being so afraid of life?"

This is something that I read, and a phrase that got stuck in my head.

Is life something to really be afraid of? Or is the thing we're afraid of the unknown? Because we're afraid of the unknown, because we're uncertain, so we are frightened by life. I don't know.

Sometimes, I start to think too much, and then I start feeling afraid. And that's when, along with being afraid, I start to feel pissed off. Angry that I am causing myself to feel this way. Because if I don't think about it, there would actually be no fear and no uncertainty. So why think?

Because, sometimes, you feel as if you're hanging somewhere; you're there but not quite there. When the actual fact is that you're there, it's just that sometimes self-doubt comes along and erases all that you've worked so hard for. Sometimes, things happen that might cause uncertainty. And sometimes, we just think too much.

So, not doubting, not thinking too much, not being uncertain, not letting things affect me, is my current motto.

I'm here, there, not here, not there. There, but not quite there. Here, but not quite here. I'm always here. I'm always there.