all at once

The other thing I forgot to mention is this.

I guess when one thing starts going downhill, everything goes downhill at once. All at once, I'm falling down, deeper and darker, into that hole.

My family is in a mess. It's going to get worse. And everyone, everything might just be broken. Everyone could just be separated. Of this, I'm not clear.

And in terms of my love life, it's a mess. It's gone. The one person who was supposed to stand by me throughout all this shit can no longer do that.

So, on top of a broken, aching heart, I've got this family shit to deal with. A soon-to-be broken family life, if everyone just fucks up more. Fucked up life, I would say.

And all I want to do is run. I know it may seem as if I've no guts, I'm a coward. Whatever you think it may be.

But all I want to do is run.

Run, run, and run. Run far far away, and never come back.

Run.

Maybe I'll see you, where ever I run to.

Run.