and now.

I never really thought that...
I never really knew...

We have this connection. We always had.

I guess I never really knew...
I guess I never really thought that...

Nothing is worth fighting for. Even if I wanted to fight. I couldn't do it alone. I wanted to make this journey. I could never make it alone. I wanted to make it with someone I cared to make it with. I fought with a purpose. I fought so hard. I fought because I wanted to.

I fought because I loved you.
Because I love you.

Because...
Because I see everything beautiful when I'm with you.
Because you light up my life.
Because I see the beauty that is you.
Because...

Just because.
Just because you complete me, as I completed you once.

You never knew that I knew how it was like for you. You never knew that I knew how things were like, how your life was lead. That was why I willingly did everything for you.

You never knew that I saw the sad girl, the sad lonely girl that you were one year ago. You never knew that I never ever wanted you to be that girl ever again. You never knew that my heart broke each time I saw that sad side of you. You never knew, so you never knew that I loved you so much. You never knew..

You never knew that I loved you right down to your soul, right down into the deepest darkest parts of you, every sad inch of you, every sweet, little crazy side of you.

I could shout it out to the world.
Can you see it? Could you hear it?

But Nothing. How can I fight for nothing.

I really didn't know...
I really never thought that...

Here, take my heart.
All 999, 999, 999, 999 pieces of it.
You have the last piece.
Little red hearts that have been cut out could never mend it back again.

Little paper red hearts, cut out, sent with a book.

Mended my heart, thank you.
Once in the past.
Wanted to be the one who mended my heart, not break it.
You did.

My warrior.
As I was my own warrior.

But nothing. Nothing to fight for.

A broken-hearted warrior can never fight.
Wounded, the walking dead.

Magical. The connection. So magical.
Forgot the connection.
Forgot the magic.
All things turn to dust.

You joined up my present with my past.
You were my sunrise after a sunset.

I guess I really, really, never ever knew.
I guess I really, really, never ever thought that...



Don't know if I could really make it tonight.
Lie awake in the dark. Come down then I start.
Thinking about you is almost breaking my heart.



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