black hole

How does it feel?
Can I just don't feel anymore?
I don't want to...

Nothing is going right.
Everything is going all wrong.

Grey dark skies.

Everything isn't the same without you.

The pain that never lessens.
The ache that is always there.
The emptiness that fills the space in my heart.

Fighting...
Fighting to hold back the tears that always threatens to fall.
Fighting against the ball of tears lodged in my throat.
Fighting to smile.
Fighting not to think of you.

But it never works.

Smoke. Just smoke.
Lack of appetite.
Trouble sleeping.
Lack of words.

Can I just forget about the world?
Can I just curl up in a ball and cry for the girl that I've lost?
Can I just hide and make believe that you're still with me?

Why?
I never hesitated the previous time.
I never hesitated; I only trusted the love that would keep us going.
Why do you hesitate?
Why?

But...
Didn't you know...?
Don't you realise...?
Can't you see...?
Couldn't you tell...?

It hurts so bad.
So bad and I hide from the world.
Run away from classes.
Out, just go out.
Walk around aimlessly, stare blankly.
Tear, cry, fight against it all.

Nothing is unsolvable.
Fear...
Why let it overtake us?

I cannot...
Cannot be strong any longer.
Hard...
It's so hard...

Run.
Just run.

Don't be afraid.
Run with me.
Take my hand and just run away with me...

Here, take my heart.
All 999, 999, 999, 999 pieces of it.
Mend it back. Just mend it back.

Run.

Everything just isn't the same without you.

Did you forget everything?
I'm scared...
So scared that you will...
The magical connection...
Those times...
Everything.

I don't know.
Can I just don't feel?
Please.

There's nothing here without you.

Come home.


Don't go, you know you'll break my heart.

I love you.