hammers

I had a terrible migraine today. a fucking terrible headache that made me couldn't stand being in a bright room or a noisy atmosphere. it felt like a thousand bloody hammers in my skull, drilling and hammering away with no regard for my pain. fucking hurt. i escaped to the girlfriend's house, where she was an absolute darling. forcing me to take painkillers, force feeding me hot drinks, just basically caring. i couldn't say it, but i felt so cared for. its been such a long time that someone has cared for me so lovingly, it made my heart so warm. which is how i can see she loves me.

The girlfriend finally admitted she logs on to my fridae account. haha. luckily i knew about it earlier, and i knew why she did so, so i wasn't very angry. i was only slightly put off tt she didn't respect me by letting me know in tt sense. but because i see why she does it, so its ok. feels like me and her have been together for years. but it feels good. haha.

I apologise if lately my entries have been on the verge of putting u all to sleep. its because there isn't much going on now tt hols are here, and all i do is to spend most of my time with the girlfriend, because that is all i enjoy doing. so if recently all entries are about me and the darling, i apologise. its just tt i feel there is so much to write about being with her. i guess basically, because it makes me happy.

Results are out on Tuesday. Fuck. But i know i will do well. I will pass all.