results & small things

Results were out yesterday afternoon. in a way, it was above expectations, seeing as i didn't go for a single lecture and maybe 3 or 4 tutorials for the whole sem. 2 Cs, 1 C+, 1 A-, 1 A, and a fucking D for a non examinable subject. but overall its good, though. i was praying to let me pass. because i was fucking afraid i wouldn't pass. but 2 As, that's unexpected, man. haha. i guess its slightly different this sem, cos i had a lot of distractions and all, and 2 weeks lesser time to catch up. the girlfriend wasn't distracting, rather she was a comfort during my exams, but i guess because i was too happy to be with her, in a way too mesmerised by the r/s and her, that it contributed to the grades too. im good with it, though, because of the 2 As, and because i know without her it wouldnt make much of a difference.

I think i really shouldn't be studying business. i can't calculate for nuts, i can't see figures or numbers for nuts. i only know that i write better. and i can crap. i wanna do smth tt i can write what i want to, and be happy studying it. but its too late for regrets, so i will just choose wad i tink is more appropriate as my specialisation. marketing, i guess. since i can speak and i can write. haha.

Well, on another note, i think small things make me happy. wad made me think that was a small conversation i had with the girlfriend yesterday. she said she wasn't happy. in other stuff. so that made me think. i guess in a way i can't fulfill her happiness, i can't make her all tt happy, so i can only do wad i can. i hope yesterday's surprise made her tt bit happier. it kinda made me thin a lot when she said she wasn't happy, cos it isn't good, when im really almost all happy and she isn't. its bad, i guess. makes me think.

But for me, im easily happy and satisfied. i learnt from a long time ago tt small things make me happier than larger things. so im happy when it rains and im home alone, it makes me happy when i can see the sun at Sentosa, im happy when i can do what i want. i guess overall, im happy because im with the girlfriend. to me, above all, being with someone i love, being able to share my life with her, my ups and downs, makes me happiest. it surpasses everything. im not being immature or thinking childishly. im thinking, instead, that having someone i love is happiest, because at the end of the day, no matter wad im unhappy about, no matter wad goes wrong, i can turn to her. that, and a good job. i guess that's why im happy now, apart from my family stressing me out.

That's all, i guess. its tuition time soon.