fuss and fussier

I realise that i'm one of those 'go with the flow' kind of person. Not in that 'anything goes' sense where i leave the planning to anyone and i just say ok to anything. Not that kind.

I'm one of those who are shun qi zi ran, as the saying goes in chinese. as in, i dun make a big fuss about a lot of things, i dun bother about a lot of things. unless i think that it truly is something important or smth big, then i will rli bother.

That's just me, i guess. Why do i say so? because well, in a way, when i dun make a big fuss, i get misunderstood or smth. but it isn't me. i may worry, i may care, but i dun make a fuss about things. i believe that making a big fuss will just cause the problem to worsen, or a lot of attention will be gained. and i don't need the attention, i guess.

So sometimes, i naturally get irritated when people make a big fuss. Its alright if you make a big fuss and the consequences are only on yourself, but it seldom happens that way. i guess in a way its called being altruistic. Unlike my mom, who will throw a huge fuss and all, and everyone else will have to bear with her nonsense.

As for me, i guess it really is altruistic. i don't really like bothering people unless i can help it. i always think that well, if people have less problems it will be better for them; everyone will be happier. so problems that i can handle, i keep to myself. in other words, i dun throw up a big fuss. in this way, i am independent because i know ultimately there are certain things that only i can learn from, that only i can solve.

I am not looking to offend anyone who reads this, but if i do, you have my sincere apologies. its just my take on certain things.

I guess i'm just in a mood.