i don't like

Is it possible to not doubt, for once.

Because, I really hate to doubt. I really hate doubting.
But I still do, and I know it.

I don't like to doubt.

I hate knowing that I still do.
I hate knowing that sometimes I still wonder about the postition I take, in your heart. As a replacement, as a game, or as someone, for a lifetime.
I hate knowing that at times, I don't want to doubt but I end up doubting.
I hate knowing that I accept you whole. As you are. Which then makes me start to wonder and doubt.

It's all one full circle.

Tell me everything.
Tell me...

Fuck.

I just love you the way you are, the way you were.

As if that would help.

If it had helped, you wouldn't have told me whatever it was you said, no?

Fuck.
Time. I guess.