to whom it may concern
Dear ..............
There was once when my life was perfect. Where I had everything, where I had the girl that I always wanted. There was once when my life was perfect.
It changed.
You left.
Because of one small uphill climb, you thought it was too big. And you left. You left. Because you thought that this meant it would always be this way.
What you didn't know was that all things pass. All problems in a relationship pass, as it always does, with communication. But you thought it was a huge problem.
You forgot. You forgot how we overcame it in the past too. You forgot. Forgot the connection. Forgot the leap of faith. Forgot how we overcame it. You forgot that with love, it would be more than enough. Forgot that just by having faith, it would be okay. You forgot those times, how we would always say we'd be together for a lifetime. Forgot how we wanted to go hand in hand through all problems, issues, obstacles together. Forgot how we fit.
You forgot how we fit, we just fit.
Dear ............., there are so many things I wish I could tell you. There are so many things I long to tell you.
I want to tell you how my heart breaks even more with each passing day that you aren't with me. I want to tell you of this overwhelming sadness that follows me every where I go. I want to tell you of how I can't smile because you aren't with me. I want to tell you of how everything reminds me of you. I want to tell you of things I see and do, but I can no longer do so. I want to tell you how my world has become so dark since you took away everything beautiful in it when you left. I want to tell you of crying myself to sleep every night, silently, letting the tears wreck my body, because I feel so lost, because I feel so empty, without you.
I want to show you the world. I want to experience every little thing with you. I want your sadness to be mine. I want your unhappiness to be mine. I want your issues to be mine. I want my happiness to be yours. I want to build a life with you. I want to be happy, just happily in love with you. I want to tell you that I don't want this anymore. That I never ever want to be apart from you again, because it is so fucking unbearable. I want to tell you that I will never ever let you go. I want to tell you that I will never, never ever let you go anymore.
How do I tell that to you now?
Dear ................, it has been 11 days. 11 fucking days without you. Do you know how bad that feels?
Dear ................, at times, I want to ask you, but I'm so so scared of hearing the truth.
Do you still --?
Are you still --?
Can you still --?
Do you really --
not bother
not care
not feel?
Do you still ..?
But I'm scared, I'm so afraid of hearing the truth...
Dear ..............., you forgot. Why did you let one small thing cloud your vision of us? You forgot. How it would always be between us. You forgot. And it hurts, it just hurts to see you deny, see you pretend. It hurts so bad.
Take this pain away, dear ................. Take it away from me, just come, come and take it away, let it be gone forever, let you and me just be happy, just be happy and in love.
I long to tell you how much I miss you. I long to hold you in my arms. I long to kiss you, to fall asleep again to the sound of your breathing, to the smell of you. I long to wake up beside you, with your arm around me. I long to hear your voice. I long to receive sweet messages from you. I long to hear you laugh. I long to see you smile. I long to hold you. I long to hold your hand... I long to show you how we fit, how we still fit, how we always fit...
Dear baby, I long to tell you how much I love you. How much I still love you.
I long to just tell you how much I love you. I long to tell you to share with me your everything, and it will all be resolved. I long to tell you how I never ever want another of this fucking being apart because it fucking kills me. I long to tell you that I love you... that I want you... that I need you...
Dear ............, it's tearing me apart. It's breaking my heart. It's breaking me into another million pieces, this pain.... this pain that is so painful, so suffocating, so hurting that I don't know what to do... it's tearing me apart slowly... so slowly... it's breaking me to be without you. Dear.............., won't you come and take me away from it... let me take you away from all your sadness and pain.
Don't you know that you're safe with me? That you don't have to run, because as long as you're with me, I'll make sure you're safe? That you'll be safe here?
makethepainstopmakeitgoawayithurtsithurtssosobad
I'm scared, baby, I'm so scared... I don't know, I'm just so scared...
I love you, I still love you, my baby.
Never letting go.
Always,
S
There was once when my life was perfect. Where I had everything, where I had the girl that I always wanted. There was once when my life was perfect.
It changed.
You left.
Because of one small uphill climb, you thought it was too big. And you left. You left. Because you thought that this meant it would always be this way.
What you didn't know was that all things pass. All problems in a relationship pass, as it always does, with communication. But you thought it was a huge problem.
You forgot. You forgot how we overcame it in the past too. You forgot. Forgot the connection. Forgot the leap of faith. Forgot how we overcame it. You forgot that with love, it would be more than enough. Forgot that just by having faith, it would be okay. You forgot those times, how we would always say we'd be together for a lifetime. Forgot how we wanted to go hand in hand through all problems, issues, obstacles together. Forgot how we fit.
You forgot how we fit, we just fit.
Dear ............., there are so many things I wish I could tell you. There are so many things I long to tell you.
I want to tell you how my heart breaks even more with each passing day that you aren't with me. I want to tell you of this overwhelming sadness that follows me every where I go. I want to tell you of how I can't smile because you aren't with me. I want to tell you of how everything reminds me of you. I want to tell you of things I see and do, but I can no longer do so. I want to tell you how my world has become so dark since you took away everything beautiful in it when you left. I want to tell you of crying myself to sleep every night, silently, letting the tears wreck my body, because I feel so lost, because I feel so empty, without you.
I want to show you the world. I want to experience every little thing with you. I want your sadness to be mine. I want your unhappiness to be mine. I want your issues to be mine. I want my happiness to be yours. I want to build a life with you. I want to be happy, just happily in love with you. I want to tell you that I don't want this anymore. That I never ever want to be apart from you again, because it is so fucking unbearable. I want to tell you that I will never ever let you go. I want to tell you that I will never, never ever let you go anymore.
How do I tell that to you now?
Dear ................, it has been 11 days. 11 fucking days without you. Do you know how bad that feels?
Dear ................, at times, I want to ask you, but I'm so so scared of hearing the truth.
Do you still --?
Are you still --?
Can you still --?
Do you really --
not bother
not care
not feel?
Do you still ..?
But I'm scared, I'm so afraid of hearing the truth...
Dear ..............., you forgot. Why did you let one small thing cloud your vision of us? You forgot. How it would always be between us. You forgot. And it hurts, it just hurts to see you deny, see you pretend. It hurts so bad.
Take this pain away, dear ................. Take it away from me, just come, come and take it away, let it be gone forever, let you and me just be happy, just be happy and in love.
I long to tell you how much I miss you. I long to hold you in my arms. I long to kiss you, to fall asleep again to the sound of your breathing, to the smell of you. I long to wake up beside you, with your arm around me. I long to hear your voice. I long to receive sweet messages from you. I long to hear you laugh. I long to see you smile. I long to hold you. I long to hold your hand... I long to show you how we fit, how we still fit, how we always fit...
Dear baby, I long to tell you how much I love you. How much I still love you.
I long to just tell you how much I love you. I long to tell you to share with me your everything, and it will all be resolved. I long to tell you how I never ever want another of this fucking being apart because it fucking kills me. I long to tell you that I love you... that I want you... that I need you...
Dear ............, it's tearing me apart. It's breaking my heart. It's breaking me into another million pieces, this pain.... this pain that is so painful, so suffocating, so hurting that I don't know what to do... it's tearing me apart slowly... so slowly... it's breaking me to be without you. Dear.............., won't you come and take me away from it... let me take you away from all your sadness and pain.
Don't you know that you're safe with me? That you don't have to run, because as long as you're with me, I'll make sure you're safe? That you'll be safe here?
makethepainstopmakeitgoawayithurtsithurtssosobad
I'm scared, baby, I'm so scared... I don't know, I'm just so scared...
I love you, I still love you, my baby.
Never letting go.
Always,
S
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