there can only be one

how many loves of your life do you think one can have?

for me, one. i think we all can only have one love of our lives. why i say so is because, no matter how different each of your previous lovers have been, there can only be this one person who touches your heart in a different way, who makes your heart skip a beat even after a long time, someone whom you feel you can give all your love to, and whom will return your love.

there can only be one.

i know it sounds silly, and perhaps there could be cynical, jaded ones who do not believe in the term 'love of my life'. i suppose there could also be others who scoff at this term and who use age as an excuse -- 'this term is only used by those who are still young!' yes, there are plenty of these people around. but there are also people who have experienced it, and who will not hesitate to call their partners the love of their lives.

i pondered, i went through all possible arguments. but i guess, ultimately, it is one's own perspective, isn't it?

for me, i believe there can only be one love of my life. and, as far as i'm concerned, i have never acknowledged my previous relationships as the loves of my life. i just felt that it wasn't the right thing, she wasn't the right one, it was not all love, we were still young.

but this one. this relationship, this girl. we've been together long now. and it isn't that we're still young. but this girl, she is awesome. she, i believe, is the love of my life.

even after a year and a month, she never fails to make my heart race when i know i'm gonna see her. she never fails to make my heart skip a beat when i hear her voice. even after so long, she still gives me the tingles, she still gives me the shivers, when she says something, texts me something, or if i just see her from afar. it's been long, but until now, she still has a spell cast over me. she still makes my heart swell up with so much love and pride, because she's mine, and i'm hers, and so many times, when this happens, i feel like my heart could literally burst with all that love. correct, it sounds kinda cheesy, but i'm sure, i'm sure, once upon a time, even you cynical beings have encountered this feeling before.

and even after 13 months, i still can't take my eyes off her. she is still the most beautiful, the prettiest, hottest girl, in my life. every day, i pass so many people by, but by far, she still wins, hands down, over the others. she is still the only girl i wanna make out with, the only girl i wanna hold, kiss, hug, the only girl i wanna make love to.

the love of my life. it sounds kinda mushy, i know. but to me, there can only be one. and she is my one. i have never acknowledged any of my past relationships this way, but this girl makes me feel different, makes me act different, changes me to be more patient, more loving. the love of my life.

we have come to know each other so well. the way we know each other, is so complete, so wholesome, that at times, it scares me. it is almost as if we have this subtle telepathy or sixth sense when it comes to us both. sometimes this telepathy freaks me out. but we have really come to know each other so well, both inside and outside. that is what makes me really proud. really, really proud of us both. really proud of her.

even though the distance keeps us apart most of the time, even though i can only see her every next month or so, even if i don't see her for 3 months or so, the distance is not our enemy. the distance doesn't erode our love, doesn't erode our closeness, doesn't erode how well we know each other. if anything, the fact that despite this distance, we have still been together for a year and a month, tells a story of love. a story of magical, true, strong love that can overcome any distances.

she makes me proud. we make me proud.

she is the love of my life. the only one.