two sides of everything

There are two sides to a coin, and similarly, there are two viewpoints to any feelings or problems.

I feel this way, and she feels that.

She knows nothing of my life now. She knows nothing of what has been happening to me or anything regarding me or the relationship now.

In my opinion, I have been supporting her all the way. I have been nice and tolerable to her moods and temper and ignoring me. I have been there for her all the time. I have even gone so far as to plan something for her in 2 weeks because I know she is feeling the stress and everything else that comes with her thesis.

But everything has its limits, and lately she has been much worse. We do not contact each other, or rather, she does not contact me the entire day, until I start reminding her. When she is on her breaks, she remembers everyone else, remembers to contact everyone else, but when it comes to contacting me, it seems to require a huge amount of effort just to ask me about my day or how I am coming along. It even seems to require a substantial amount of effort to tell me she loves me.

I guess everyone functions differently under duress, but this is going way too far. I have been through that tough time before in school, just as she is now, but I set aside time for her each time I have my breaks. We don't even talk now, and she has become very adept at hanging up on me, or putting down the phone on me in a rude way when we talk. We talk for maybe 5 minutes, maybe less. Just awhile ago, we talked for 2 minutes. Actually, if I did not hang on to the phone, we would have probably talked for all of 30 seconds.

I understand what she is going through. I understand the stress and madness that she is going through. I understand how busy she is. What I do not understand is how, in the midst of this stress and madness and busyness, she cannot seem to spare some kinda thought or reassurance for me, to let me know that despite all these, she is still there. At the end of the day, when she is done for the night, she doesn't talk to me either.

I get that she is tired. I get all of that. But out of 1 whole week and even more, it has been this way. There is no sign that she has a girlfriend. I totally understand that she is tired at the end of every day. Yet I don't think contacting your girlfriend, reassuring her that you are still there, telling her that you love her, takes up much of your time, or causes you even more tiredness. If anything, the fact that your girl is still there for you and still loves you should motivate you to work more, because who else loves you that much to let you be this way?

I told her about it just now, and we got into a quarrel. Well, simply put, I do not think that in any circumstances, you should take anyone for granted.

I don't know how to describe how I feel. Sometimes, I feel as if it is almost like I have given up, especially when she decides not to contact me for the entire day, and I do not contact her either.

How much do you know about my life now? What do you bother to know about your girlfriend now?

I understand that you are busy and stressed and uptight about your thesis, so I don't tell you about all of these, and I try as much not to text you or contact you too much.

You don't say I love you, unless I remind you to.

Still, I am always on your side.