which ignorant are you?

there is the blissfully ignorant, and there is the knowingly ignorant. which one are you?

i know that there are some people who think that i don't know much. there are some who think that i am not observant enough. and then there are some who think that i don't know because i cannot be bothered. and there are others who think that i don't know many things because i never say a word.

but there is something called the knowingly ignorant, so as to be blissful.

like it is always said, never assume. likewise, just because i don't say a word, it does not mean that i know nothing. more often than not, i know a lot. i know a lot of what is going on, how one feels, how one thinks, what is going on, even if i am not told. sometimes, things don't have to be said for someone to know.

i know what is going on, almost all the time. i just don't wish to speak it out. i am of the belief that that person concerned will speak, as and when the person wants to. when it comes to her, i am of the belief that she will tell me everything because it is a matter of trust. i believe that if she chooses to keep something to herself, she should know the consequences. either that, or it isn't important enough. so to her, i am of the belief that it is trust.

i don't know why i don't say what i know out. perhaps i just want to wait for that person involved to tell me. perhaps i just feel it isn't my position to speak. perhaps i just want to avoid trouble as it is. but this potentially leads to taking me for granted, at times.

there are things i know about her that she doesn't tell me. just as there are things she omits to tell me because it isn't important enough. that doesn't mean i don't know. it just means that i trust her enough not to ask. in the past, she would keep things from me on purpose. and i knew, but i never said. now, though, its changing. she doesn't keep anything from me on purpose. its more like it isn't important enough, if she doesn't tell me. and i get this feeling that she knows that i know a lot, i just don't say it out.

sometimes i wonder if knowing too much but never saying it out is bad. i suppose it really depends. but sometimes, being quiet is being knowingly ignorant, so as to be blissful. isn't that so? take for example the fucked up younger sister. oh, she takes my stuff, uses my stuff, steals my things, never brings it back, never washes anything, and she thinks i don't know a single thing. then gradually my things start getting locked up by me, and things of lesser importance are placed haphazardly outside in replacement. so i never let out that i know what she does, i just take action in whichever way i deem fit. at the end of the day, i am still blissfully ignorant.

ultimately, though, i would say, never assume. for you would never know what one keeps locked up in that tiny little part of her, where words are never spoken, but knowledge is always gained.