you look on while i dance

I wonder why it is that some people can always get away with some things, but I always fail to get away with so many things.

So I get it all. Yes, I understand it now.

There is still plenty more that I do not understand.

Like how come it is that it has never been considered, but once in a while, give me a break, please?

Or like how there are too many things that I don't bring up or don't fight about, but forgive easily, so please, think a little on my behalf and give me a break, please?

Or like how I usually take everything and anything, so if there is a day that I don't, perhaps it is because that day is just a day that I cannot take, so please give me a break and don't show me your attitude?

Or like how I don't ask for so many things, so when I do ask, please don't make me feel like I'm not entitled to it?

Or perhaps, if ever I do go out of line, please think that I am not the only one, and I don't do it as often, and perhaps, please also consider that perhaps I just got pushed so much because... just because...?

There are times when I really don't know what to do, and I could cry a river just thinking about what I should do or should not do.

There are times when I am so lost, I don't know what I should be doing anymore. Isn't this about giving and taking? Why, when I admit so many things about myself, change so many things about me, you just cannot admit some things about yourself, or even that perhaps your attitude isn't what it should be now?

Why, at times, am I dancing to all the steps, and why do you just stand there with the crowd, refusing to dance?

There are times that you refuse to meet my eyes, so you don't see the look in my eyes when I dance alone.

Are your eyes sad like mine?